Nyssa :)'s Journal

11:32AM - For Grace: Tell me if u like this song hehe.. i love it haha

Young Folks - Peter Bjorn & John

Genre/Lang. : indi

(Feat. Victoria Bergsman)

if i told you things i did before
told you how i used to be
would you go along with someone like me
if you knew my story word for word
had all of my history
would you go along with someone like me

i did before and had my share
it didn't lead nowhere
i would go along with someone like you
it doesn't matter what you did
who you were hanging with
we could stick around and see this night through

and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you

usually when things has gone this far
people tend to disappear
no-one will surprise me unless you do

i can tell there's something goin' on
hours seems to disappear
everyone is leaving i'm still with you

it doesn't matter what we do
where we are going to
we can stick around and see this night through

and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you

and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you
talking only me and you

talking only me and you
talking only me and you

9:23PM

Name TEN Small Things For Which You Are Grateful Today And Tag FIVE Others To Do The Same

1. That i have finished my 11 1/2 hour shift today haha
2. my lil work buddies that came into work at diffrent times that helped perk me up when i was bored, lonley, tired etc etc actually kept me going and not mind being there haha
3. Actually having a job!
4. being able to drive and have a car
5. 4 everyone i know and love for being them! :) xo this is what keeps me sane!
6. Being part of the play i'm involved in and doing the course i'm doing
7. Having a home and a family that except me for me
8. My many funny memories
9. The gym :P
10. for the things i can't think of atm

I was bored and yes u all have 2 do it 2 :P hehe

1:54PM - bored bored bored haha.. obviously

x] they call me: nyssa, nyss, nyss nyss, miss nys, lil nyss, nissan etc
[x] sex: where?
[x] status: single as single can be
[x] occupation: student and food and bev attendent

_______REWIND_______
[x] most memorable memory: i have alot of funny, and happy memories.. i tresure them
[x] worst?: being alone
[x] first word uttered: :S
[x] first friend ever?: nick

_______FAST FORWARD_______
[x] college: Deakin
[x] occupation: didn't i already say this
[x] future resident of: some nice place
[x] wedding: like i randomly say.. at this rate i dun think there will be a wedding haha
[x] children: me without kids? would tear me apart
[x] looking forward 2: love, life and what ever comes my way.. the good times
[x] NOT looking forward 2: heartache
_______PLAY_______
[x] feeling: meh
[x] listening to: the rain
[x] doing: this duh
[x] thinking of: wanting 2 go out tonite, but the weather is shit and still hope ppl are up 4 it hehe
[x] craving: company
[x] missing: friends
[x] hating: ummmm haha

_______FAVORITES_______
[x] song: hehe i have alot... :P
[x] radio station: nova or fox
[x] tv show: will and grace, home and away *hides*, sex n the city, gilmore girls ummmm
[x] channel: 7 hehe
[x] site: www.google.com.au
[x] movie: the notebook, aussie flicks, american beauty, ummmm
[x] store: anywhere with a bargin :P
[x] actor: johnny depp, sean penn, anthony hopkins, ummmm can't think
[x] actress: cate, renee z, nicole, transformational actors/actresses ;)
[x] food: YOGOURT, sushi, wraps
[x] book: tomoz when the war began :P

_______LOVE_______
[x] love is: something we all need
[x] love or lust?: both is nice
[x] is it possible to be in love with more than one person at the same time?: thre are lots of types of love, the one i think people experince the most is love 4 friends and family, the other special love i think prob only happen 4 one person at one time, but i mean i wouldn't know
[x] when love hurts, you: find someone 2 care
[x] true or false: all you need is love: very true

_______SPECIES_______
[x] turn ons: sense of humour, friendlyness and loveiness, smile
[x] turn offs: too much cockeyness, thinking u know everything
[x] does your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: yer i guess
[x] what kinda hair style?: what ever suits the person
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: love you for who you are, and look out 4 u.
[x] do you like tomatos?: yer.. why?
[x] internet connection: cable/wireless
[x] how many TVs in the house?: 5
[x] how many phones?: including mobiles? haha... 9
[x] how many residents?: 5
[x] how many DVDs do you have?: god i dunno haha
[x] last dentist visit: god knows
[x] last doctor visit: few months ago
[x] last IM: no idea what ur on about

12:26AM

last cigarette: umm not a full one lil drags umm about month ago i think
last kiss: oh wouldn't u LOVE 2 know that haha
last good cry: good cry.. can't remember, drunk cries friday hha
last library book checked out: some drama book
last movie seen: wolf creek, thats was groosom, but soo good
last book read: i'm reading john marsdens latest atm,
last cuss word uttered: stupid C&*(
last beverage drank: some juice
last food consumed: vita wheat
last crush: wouldn't u also love 2 know
last phone call: morgan
last tv show watched: sex in the city
last time showered: this morning
last shoes worn: brown havarnas
last cd played: veronicas
last item bought: my fucking ring, i was soo pissed off and drunk
last thing downloaded: god i can't remember.
last annoyance: cars
last disappointment: ummm haha
last thing written: roster times
last key used: delete
last words spoken: was gay
last sleep: mid morning nap.
last sexual fantasy: well... haha
last weird encounter: i have to many of them
last time amused: at work before laughing at my work friends
last time wanting to die: oh gosh, dunno about that
last time you fell in love: dun think i've ever fell in LOVE
last time hugged: before atwork
last time scolded: gosh dunno about that one
last time resentful: haha gosh alot
last chair sat in: this one or car seat
last lipstick used: in my play in sept haha
last underwear worn: some pair
last bra worn: white and pink one
last shirt worn: bonds top and industrie jumper
last time dancing: umm stupidly at work haha
last poster looked at: no idea
last show attended: angels with dirty faces
last webpage visited: ninemsn

1 MINUTE AGO: typing
1 HOUR AGO: at work working/finishing
1 DAY AGO: sleeping, watching movie
1 WEEK AGO: working, catching up wif ppl etc
YEAR AGO: doing the same haha
I HURT: hahaha my knee at work knelt on a peice of glass and it bleed none stop for half an hour
I LOVE: so many ppl
I LIKE: laughing
I HATE: being bored
I FEAR: being alone
I HOPE: to make ppl happy
I FEEL: meh
I HIDE: yer haha
I DRIVE: average
I MISS: lil things
I LEARNED: ALOT in my time
I NEED: a hug
I THINK: bed looks good soon

current music: nothing haha silence
current taste: capsicum
current hair: in a ponytail
current annoyance: the rain
current smell: can't smell anything
current thing I should be doing: sleeping
current desktop picture: love hearts and butterflies all PINK
current refreshment: nothing
current worry: nothing major

1. What do you most like about your body?: my face
2. And least: afraid of getting bigger
3. How many fillings do you have?: not sure
4. Do you think you're good looking?:i'm ok i guess
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good looking?: yes..
6. Do you look like any celebrities?: apparenlty.. haha

1:02AM

I was tagged, so i should do this right?? this will also be the first entry i have done in like 1000 yrs haha so here we go

RANDOM FACTS


o1 :: if u didn't know i'm obbsessed with the colour pink! I think i might have a problem, i dunno why, but i just LOVE IT

o2 :: i'm addicted to yogurt atm.. i just love it, there is this shop in camberwell market that makes litrally the best yogourt in melbourne ppl come from sunbury 2 get it!


o3 :: I found out few months ago i'm anemic, its not that i dun like meat, i just apparenlty dun eat enough.. its sucks though cos makes me tired all the time, then i get ok then tired again, shit man.. i try to eat it but its hard 2 come by on the run


o4 :: I just got a new fone, guess what colour it is, its PINK hehe, its a samsung e530 i'm so in love wif it hehe


o5 :: With music, i'm pretty easy i'll listen to anything, but i just realised i'm a huge pop/rock lover so u know the veronicas, avril and kelly clarkson, i should prob die in shame over that, but i cant there music helps get alot of ya chest when ya singing out loud in the car haha.. yer there is a random fact for ya.. but also lve stuff like u know coldplay, u2, greenday.. seriously i'll listen to anything at least oncehehe


o6 :: I was a HUGE fan of the spice girls, i'm not going to deny it or hide in shame i was a proud fan, i hated hanson though, dunno why but couldn't stand them haha. But bring on the GIRL POWER

o7 :: I never in my wildest dreams ever think i'd own a pair of skinny leg jeans or even want to own them.. but i do and love em...

o8 :: I consider my self lucky to know and love so many people, each person has taught me something and made me, me i reakon. Some people u may not see for ages, but when u do see them or bump into them it felt like time has never past, then u know i reakon it was truley friendship from the start

o9 :: I wore glasses when i was yonger for about 3 yrs, but i got sooo slack after like 6 months, everyone had 2 tell me 2 go put them on, and guess what colour the frames were?? PINK :P haha i waslucky i didn't have 2 wear them 24/7

1o :: I get really confused and annoyed what people ask me what i'm going to do wif myself after my degree or what my course is going to do for me, the whole reason i went to uni doing drama is to gain some kinda insight on what direction in to where i could go with it and get some kinda degree meet new ppl and do stuff before hitting out there and taking hte big chance step, maybe i'm just scared.. i dunno, but its something i love doing, when i'm doing it or in rehs with people that love it performing i know its what i really truley would love to do, but if i can do it and make a career out ofit, is a huge chance and unknown outcome

11 :: i'm thinking of going bak to the blondy colour i was late last yr, do people know what i'm talking about what u think??

12 :: i have 2 neices and 2 nephews, i have 2 half sisters, i dun see very often i did heaps when i was lil thought, anyway one neice looks exactly like me when i was her age its scary, but she wears glasses atm... darcy and blake my newphews have red hair, but there parents have blonde, how werid is that!

13 :: i love a bargin if i could get like a designer/ real product for cheap, i'm soo there, i will look for the best deal, its means alot of thinking and looking around...

14 :: i'm a workaholic, i can't help it but i can't stay not busy, if i have a day off from doing nothing like not even seeing someone or doing at least something, i feel really bad and werid, i have 2 do something with my day or i feel like shit, unless i'm REALLY tired and need a rest ahaha

15 :: I love children, i dunno what it is about them but they seriously make me happy and put a smile on my face, if i have a shit day and lil kid is around i'll smile, i can't wait 2 have a kid of my own i'm so clucky it scares ppl hhaa

16 :: i'm single and to tell u the truth atm it doesn't really bother me, it use to but now i just got the point where i'm like fuck it, if it comes along it will come along, nothing i can really do about it haha


17 :: i sing all the time... if u haven't notice, it keeps me sane haha, people at work go u should do australian idol, but no thank-you hehehe, i dun think i can sing i can sing soo shit at times, i just love having fun singing a song and dancing along... i'm one of those weridos in there car alone singing hehe


18 :: My name in greek means new beginning and in scandiavian means friendly elf hehe

19 :: I'm 5 foot 3 and proud :P

2o :: i seriously glad this is the last number cos i can't think of anything else 2 say hehe

there u go, hope you found that intresting.. mite post some pics up later so u can see what i been up 2 hehe

ttys xoxo

3:31AM - i havent updated in ages, but i agree with this, here here 2 all the ppl that treat others equally

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I
wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Repost this if you belive homophobia is wrong.

12:33AM - OMG- how true is this haha... thats cool huh.. but beeing a drama nerd isn't that bad is it? haha

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8:57PM - a song i like atm..

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.


( now i quite like these following lines, no idea why haha,kinda just getsto me hehe)
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah


hope everyone is well, feel like i havent seen or spoken 2 ppl in ages.. *cries*!!!

12:23AM

well i haven't updated this thing in months... so i might as well update:

I think the reason why i haven't updated is cos its just been the normal thing for me and thats been i work and see ppl wheni can haha...

Well works been good, i love my work buddies.. just got off the fone from my friend chris who i started off working wif and like haven't seen him in months!! so we had good old laugh.. keep making some new friends where ever i end up working which is so nice.. i think thats what makes me work so much, the fact that i try 2 make fun out of it.

This week was lil crazy though, got call 8:30am asking 2 work at this cafe ASAP so i made my way down and my lil buddy thmous was working there which was a relif a friend that could show me the ropes so was fun, then got asked 2 work most of the week, so i was working there, then can friday ihad 2 do my orignal shift so endedup working 7am wif 2 hours gap through till 12pm was kinda rooted by like 10pm. Was working at telstra dome in the boxes so my room was kinda cruise which was nice and by the time i finished up and saw work friends i was likk awake.. haha.. parked at crown though... so had 2 get from telstra 2 crown, i normally drove ppl from telstra 2places, but this time i was like :S haha.. fuck i dunno if i could walk, but lucky tamara dropped me off, just offered which was so nice and simon scabbed a lift 2 haha, so we both walked 2 crown togeather and litrally drove all the way home cos we just live up the road from eachother so that was fun, so a day which could have been shit turned out quite nice cos friends haha

Apart from a busy life of work.. i've managed to go out.. went 2 the harp weds nite for primary skool friends b'day.. was kinda werid cos was all her friends and shit but kinda know them so that was fun, saw a work friend and then lauren who was with her work friends, it was so werid being there wif out anna, we have 2 go this weds guys!! i'm gonna have a big one, i gotta i gotta, i need 2 get drunk!!

Thrus nite went 2 room that was good, haven't been there in awhile and it was fun just dancing i was driving but i mean, who says u cant have fun with out drinking hehe, saw HEAPS of MLC girls!! i mean u can't go anywhere with out seeingppl, which is soo nice.. ilikethat feeling hehe..

had few b'days recently and a lot more 2 come, had lot of dinners and stuff was soo fun doing that.. thing that shat me up the wall is that i alwyas had something in the way either a exam or something that prevented me from going out the next nite etc.. argh its annoying but its the waylife goes haha

its nice seein the gang now and then feel bad i can't always see ppl, but i mean its always a treat when i can see u guys :)

god i'm so worried about my fone bill.. i've become a lil yappy.. good god... i no idea how i do it.. i feel so bad, so if i dun msg ppl bak in few days and stuff its cosi'm trying 2 keep it down.. cos my fone bill comes with thefamilies i dun want my mum 2 get shocked haha, i warned herthough and said i'm paying for most of it.. haha.. ihave such a bad concious haha

anyway there is a lil update in the worldof nyssa lil pointless 2, as u can see my life hasn't really changed haha.. maybe i just look lil older haha :P

hope everyone is well xoxo

11:22PM - der we go.. got this from alot of u :)

) I am: easy going
2) My ex-boy/girlfriend was: a dream
3) I'm just a: girl next door
4) Maybe I should: be more serious
5) Is cute: awwwww
6) I love: alot of people!
7) Looking for: a man haha
8) I don't understand: alot of things
9) I lost my: sanity :P
10) My boy/girlfriend is: in my dreams haha
11) In darkness, I: feel curious
12) Why do I: think 2 much
13) Is there such a thing as: fate?
14) Does the: moon tlk to the sun?
15) People say I'm: always smiling
16) Love is: something that everyone should have
17) You make me wanna: laugh
18) Somewhere, someone is: thinking of you ;) ( i like 2 think thats true ;))
19) Is it true that: one day everything will seem perfect?
20) I will always: be there
21) Forever is: a long time
22) I never want to: hurt you..

4:26PM - i've done everyone elses, can u do one for me 2?? hehe

01. what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. colour eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Whats the nicest thing I've ever said to you?
36. What's the meanest?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

11:57PM - going to try and be all D+Mful haha

i've been thinking laterly, u never really know whats going through ur friends minds, or what there really thinking or what there really feeling, what there pasts are like and what there futures dream 2 hold unless u talk about it hey? somtimes its hard to bring up issues, sometimes its hard 2 ask them personal questions, so u just hold back...

was thinking to myself about, things and was thinking.. back to my monologue the last line i wrote for it last yr for drama and how true it really is to me and everyone else i guess...
" you can either love me for who i am, or despise me for what i am... but i'll always be me"
its so true, people can either like you for ur personality, looks or intrests, dislikes, belifs and that either draws you or makes u wanna turn away, its why we build friendships its why we lose friendships, it why we full in love, its why we dun fall in love, somtimes u dunno why but u are drawn to people for diffrent reasons...

people should just be themselves and not feel that htye have to follow or be a curtain way cos they are expected to, if u like someone for who they are u should be who u are, not someone diffrent to be excepted.... i guess sometimes people hold back and hide things cos they feel they won't be loved anymore, when really we should just love everyone for who they are as a person and not concentrate on hating people cos of quilites u dun like, focus on the good things, i know that what i try and do... not focus on the bad things and try and brighten the bad things that happen or the bad things that are said and done and try and make them better with the good..

anyway i dunno why, i'm saying this shit, just felt like thinking aloud and hopfully make people think as well..

hope all is well wif u all xoxo

10:11PM

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this, allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.....

8:56PM - there u got a boring survay haha

::Aboot Moi::
-name:: Nyssa
-age:: 18
-gender:: female
-sexuality:: straight
-nicknames:: Nyss, lil nyss, mys nyss, lil myss nyss, betty, crazy nyssa
-like them:: yer
-zodiac:: Leo
-psycholigical 'disorders'?:: most probably
-are you emotional?:: yer.. sometimes i show it sometimes i don't
-sensitive:: depends
-ever been called bitter,cold..anything to that effect?:: maybe
-hobbies:: umm hanging around
-most overused phrase:: gay..
-dislikes:: being stupid
-likes:: people, laughing, driving, smiling, having fun
-have any tattoos:: nah
-you want some:: what u mean ;)

::Yes or No::
-using lables:: not sure what you quite mean there
-dates:: yes
-love:: can't say yes or no there, haven't been there
-murder:: no
-rock music:: yer
-hardcore:: no
-Metal:: no
-punk:: no
-reggae:: no
-goth industrial:: no
-pop:: yer
-r'n'b:: yep
-hip hop:: yer
-jazz:: americano americano americano
-Bush:: haha dickhead haha
::Choose::
-reggae/pop:: pop
-reggae/rock:: rock what the fuck is reggae
-epiphone/fender:: fender
-stag/yamaha:: yamaha
-coke/pepsi:: coke
-tea/coffee:: coffee
-blink/sum 41:: blink
-nirvana/chillies:: Chillies
-good charlotte/avril:: avirl!!
-korn/slipknot:: korn
-movies/tv:: both
-ocean/pool:: Pool
-city/country:: depends what i'm doinghhaha
-50/jay-z:: 50

::Favourites::
-On oppisite sex?:: face and shoulders i guess, fucked if i know!
-Hair:: any colour depends who they are...
-Eyes:: any
-clothing:: casual.. tee and pants suits me fine haha
-music:: anything.. open minded men are nice
-Tattoos:: if i like the guy and he has one, i could prob live wif it
-Piercings:: depends if i like them or not.. its whats inside that counts.. :P looks are a bonus haha

::Random::
-ice cream flavour:: hazalnut and pepe choc chip
-people to be around when you're happy:: anyone.. :)
-top 5 bands your listening to atm:: god i'm hopless with music
-Places to shop:: anywhere
-instrument:: violin
-non alcoholic drink:: ummm juice, water
-alcoholic:: vodka and something or modori
-drug:: no thanks, i get off on naturally stuff, some people think i'm on drugs, but there so wrong haha :P
-type of car:: echo
-sport to play:: hahhaha
-sport to watch:: anything

::Do You::
-have a gf/bf?:: nah
-lover?:: i wish
-hate to see happy couples?:: its good and bad
-have a car:: yer
-have your own computer?:: yer
-own a pair of birkenstocks?:: fake ones haha :P
-have secret fantasies about someone you know- bah hahahahah-have big dreams?:: most of the time, last nite was trippy
-want children?:: have 2 have them
-marriage?:: if it happens
-have anger issues?:: wouldn't say so
-drink?why?like it?:: drink cos ilike it
-do any drugs?:: no
-write? if so, what?:: haha, i write shit haha
-watch a lot of t.v?:: nah
-surf the web a lot?:: umm yer iguess
-surf?:: nah
-skate?:: na
-dance?:: when i feel like it
-like to be wet? umm no :P
-okay, now be dirty:: NOO

::Would You::
-go out with a best friend?:: prob not haha
-date someone after knowing them for 2 days?:: depends haha
-write a suicide note on a public blog?:: umm nah
-bottle everything to keep from dragging others down?:: hope not :S
-think someone was pathetic for doing the above:: nah idon't
-ever cut?:: umm no

::Have You Ever::
-been eaten:: my mossies
-betrayed someone:: prob
-been betrayed:: yer
-been forced to do things:: nah
-wanted to die:: yeh
-done something about it:: nah, not really
-made out in a public place, where?:: haha umm
-performed on stage?:: yer i have, and want to keep doing so :), craving for it actually
-played on a team?:: yer i have
-been in a band?:: not a band as such
-Play an instrument?:: yer
-had work published?:: yer
-lost it?:: yer a few times
-been to a mental institute?:: nah

::Last Part::
-are you a vegetarian? here and there
-special eating rituals?:: nah haha
-fussy about appearance:: yer some of hte time
-are you in love?:: nah haha
-with how many people:: god how can u love someone if ur not wif them? god haha
-how many people do you love:: ooooo HEAPS of ppl
-how many scars do you have on your body:: umm about 5-6
-last time you had a haircut:: last yr sometime
-last time you laughed uncontrollably:: umm forget
-last time you cried:: yesterday
-over what?or..who?:: umm alot of stuff
-last time you didn't eat for a day:: umm not sure, i at least eat something in a day or drink
-what's the compliment ppl give to you the most:: ur always happy.. (apparenlty..)
-do you ever blame people?:: depends haha
-like to have control?:: yer i do sometimes
-want to be loved?:: god yer
-need to be loved?:: it be nice 2, but i live, i love 2 love ppl, i guess thats allu need..
-what are the things you can't live without?:: people, laughs, fone and car
-what is your scent?:: what eva i'm wearing
do you have obsessions:: umm not sure haha
-Are you obsessive:: yer i can be
-are you sure?:: yer this and that i guess haha

9:53PM

well i guess i should update this thingy

whats new wif me:

Um worked a shit load recently, work is like a 2nd home 2 me now and i still love it, dunno why, i guess its cos of the people and how everything always seems new :)

Last week i managed to work over 36 hours, which is a pretty fair effort with uni i guess hehe, have this week off atm, so i shall be going mad, going out wise hehe

other day, found 70 bucks, being the innocent sweet heart i am handed it in to the supervisor who said: " ok what u want me 2 do with it now?"
" then other ppl in the room, yelled out, NYSSA ur a idiot, u should have pocketed it :P"
" i'm like nah i couldn't never do that, damn how do i get it back :("
so yer fuck i was a idiot haha..

Uni:

I'm getting use to uni now, starting to have some real great laughs and getting to know people really well, its really nice, where ever i go now, i have a buddy so its great fun and we always seem to have a good laugh as well over something.

Handed my first ass in today, that was scary, i'm sure i'll fail, but i hope i don't :S was over like i dunno 2000 words :|

Going to the zoo tomorrow, me and my drama pals are gonna go in togeather, someones gonna drive, pretty sure its gonna be me.. :P haha

I'm a little taxi here and there, got a uni friend i drive 2 the station every monday and friday, which is a nice company and also picked up alex cheatley today when she walked past my car and happened to miss the tram so i'm like ALEX?? wanna lift haha..

so yer uni is fun!

OUt out times:

been out here and there, not as much as i would have hoped being a teenager, but getting into the habit of going to the hawthorn on tues, so thast nice, shall be happening again tomoz, so that should be fun :) planning tohave a big one, no uni or work so YAY

umm trying to think of other stuff i can crap on about, sure alot of intresting stuff has happened to talk about, but can't think of it atm haha..

Anyway ttys, hope everyone is well xoxo

5:40PM

today i caught up with my buddy shanny!! after a fucking boring lecutre, where i spent most of it cracking jokes and talking about stuff with nya and jo hehe..

Anyway, i went out for lunch with shanny, and it was soo good 2 see her again, i drove in her car for the first time and shes a PRO at reverse parking, we passed a spot and shes like... u reakon i should reverse and i'm like well if ya game, iknow i wouldn't touch it and shes like i'll give it a try and shes like i never done it before, but swung into it with such ease and grace and did it PERFECT, was great!!
clap clap hehe..

so we ended up this really nice cafe and sat in the sun and had a good time, then she drove me bak to uni and i was talking to her while driving and i didn't realise she drove into a dead end was so funny trying toget out, cos everyone looking at us like wtf haha, but we had a good giggle about it and sheyet again got out with ELEGENCE and GRACE hehe..

anyway was heaps fun, then i caught up with janette one of my uni friends, then kellie and then marie and nya, and yaku etc etc etc an got ready for drama so today was nice one :)

thanks for a good lunch break shanelle, we have 2 do it again super soon xo

i also spent some of my money from all my working nites, so that that was a good feeling also, got this really funky, cross over hoody, i'm in love haha

8:50PM

work was so pointless today, and 2 think i went through hell before it started for it, just makes it more pointless haha

i can't believe i'm at home at 9:30 and i was at work haha..

got to work about 4:15.. get inside un pack, get my top on and go FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK.. my skirt fell out of my bag, when i had 2 get my fone out, when my boss called me, FUCK, wardrobe won't let me borrow there skirts, cos i'm not CROWN staff, so i try ring ralph, they dont anser there fone, i run up 2 jay jays, its 4:35pm, i start at 5pm, i rush i run through the shop, not one skirt thats appropriate, not even in cotton on, ring up like parctically in tears to my bosses.. rochelle!!! hi its nyssa, and shes like NYSSA.. and then shes like.. awww.. whats wrong, i tell her and shes like i'll sort it out, she twists the arms of the wardrobe dick haha, and i get a skirt, i forget my name badge so they all make fun of me and say i'm gonna get fired that i can hack anyway haha.. i then do the drinks and have afull try and harrys helping me and the doors like so gay, anyway, i dunno what happened by knocked the champs glass and it knocked over and like i spill the champs and there like tis all good, always happens, and we joke about haha, THEN haha i come back and harry like.. so u ok now nyssa, and i'm like yer yer try 2 open the bloody door we all hate that door and this time... THE WHOLE TRAY SPILLS... harry who is doing bar, pisses himslef, jacqui and russell are out in the function room pissing themselfs and i'm like OMG i'm gonna crack the shits when trying not 2 laugh, i left likethis POOL of red, white, orange juice, champs and water all over the ground and i'm like OMG OMG i feel so bad, and there like dun worry, its one of those days, but OMG haha

Anyway i went onto food and that was nice, got some intraction wif guests..it was a cocktail and so i just wonder around wif food and strik up convo its quite fun, so easy adn this one only went 4 a hour!! YAY, then i spent 2 hrs with my team which was 3 of us, packing up.. it was so werid, i wasthe only agency staff on, so was like me and the "crownies" and superviors was nice, cos i get on with them well, at first ur bit like i'm a outsider, but when u spend months with them they fine :)..

soo yer work seemed like a waste and pain in the arse, but yer was quite easy hehe

anyway the end..

3:17PM

OMFG, i'm so annoyed, i was like half way through a HUGE entry for once and it all deleted sooo annoyed, so now i'm just gonna break it up into kinda dot points of my day then write what comes..

Had uni most of this week, weds are my day off...

Got into uni early yesterday thinking, everyone i know gonna be in class and shit i'll go to the library, but ended up bumping into a guy from work and talking to him for like 2 hrs haha..

Then i sat in a lecture with kelly and Nia. It was so boring, they could have made it a tad more intresting or something cos it was on PULP FICTION, the best bits were watching the film but i mean they could gone better way about talking about shit haha..

Nia's name is actually Nyssa, how werid is that, we are in 2 classes and when we both said yes to nyssa on the role, we got such a shock and still can't get over it, but we get on really well and just click, we are soo diffrent as ppl, but also have small similarities which is kinda proof that names bring some things to ur personality, i mean i can tell cos i only met one other nyssa, u know wht i mean, but its so trippy and we still go, OMG i dun wanna share my name this is werid, but she decided i can be nyssa in class and she can be nya haha, so i'm like YAYAY haha..

our drama class is really close, its so nice we only have a 11ppl which is like one of the smallest classes and like half of us are wagging a lecture we have 2 be at, at the same time, but there was this huge fuck up and the classes that don't clash are really full that liek ppl that need 2 be in it can't get in, so half of us are bing "bad arses" refered 2 by tam our teacher have decided to try 2 get by the subwith out that lecture and getting caught.. OOOPS :S but are class is so close already and becoming good friends.. makes life in drama lil easier when u have 2 do things u dun really wanna do hahah

i had 2 leave early which was like just 20/10mins early than everyone else, cos i couldn't leave damn haha, had 2 be in city by 6pm got there at 6:30 which meant free parking in queensbridge YAY haha.. anyway.. i got into training and finally got in and was my normal self, but not as chatty cos the guy was a rule FREAK, i got in and was like WTF and the others are like i know haha.. i got like 3 msgs and read them all, but couldn't reply cos i was meant to have my "fone off" i confused later when it was like 15mins over time haha, cos then he could do jack all about it haha :P

its really werid recently, i've found myself like at work thingys and like uni and stuff alot more louder than i wouldhave been at school, i dunno what it is, but i can be such a loud one, i dunno where its coming from, but it feels likethe real me, like i get louder when i'm in the mood i guess and with ppl that i get along well with? its really werid but just a obbservation that i been more louder and open than say i would have been early highschool days, its like i kinda know who i iam in a way, and u either like me or dont for it? i really dun get it haha

anyway after trainging me and my "crown fam" haha well few of us that always get togeather when poss, went out for coffee that was really nice, but those fire things scared the shit out of me haha, then we went our spearate ways... and i went off to cheers to meet up wif some peeps there, and i played driver homera which was nice, its such a nice feeling, i think driving ppl home hehe *hides*

I saw juzz there 4 a bit.. and i agree it was soo dead, when i got in at like 10:30ish, it was dead as i got in and was like guys what the fuck is with this place tonite and there like lil earlier and yer it picked up a bit but not much, so i watched the whole place through sober eyes and a werid thing happened though....

i was sitting down, and this guy approches me with a backpack i'm like wtf.. and ended up he wanted 2 sell me "pills" i'm like "look i'm not intrested" and he pissed off, haha there more 2 that story, but this entry is long enough already, but i must say i was soo shocked 2 actually witness it, cos u just think its something u see in movies or just hear about, not that ppl actually have the guts 2 do it haha

i had the weridest dream last ntie, it was like last nite at cheers right and like i hadn't left, but we all got locked upstairs right cos there was a terriost downstarts so like i dunno 50 of us were like scared shitless and like we couldn't leave and security was tight and stuff, andthen we got let out and all these reporters and shit were outside and police and stuff, was soo trippy haha and like we had 2 piss bolt out and go home before they caught us was so werid haha..

anyway, there is a entry from me, who u haven't heard from in awhile, hope that wasn't 2 boring 4 ya :P hehe

xox

3:14PM

Well i thought i'd get my arse into gear and update my lj..

I haven't been up to alot, i actually been working quite a bit though which i love... you meant to hate work right? but i love it, i guess its cos i get to work with people, i turn up to work, not knowing whosgonna be there, if i'm doing food or bev, what kinda function its gonna be, when i get out, if i get a good table, if i get a bad table, who my partner is etc, its always a new adventure hehe, so yer i been getting money recenlty which is nice *big smile* but yer i worked till 2am the other nite and suprisingly didn't give a toss when i was gonna go home, was a good nite cos i achived the 3 plate carry the whole nite when me and my partner were like we are so gonna fuck this up haha, but we didn't we were like SCORE... hey do ppl remember ellanna bobenko? she was in the yr above us at MLC, and i knew her through drama and stuff, well she was in the stage show that they were doing.. also rebecca becks, from hey dad and alot of musicals like beauty and beast and stuff, well later that nite, i spilt a tray in front of, which wasn't my fault, stupid dumb freak, pushed right past me like i didn't exist and beer and wine went all overme.. not happy jan!
hehe

O week this week can't bloody wait!! shouldbe fun :), i can't wait 2 start uni hehe *hides*

I been out here and there which is always nice :) Intresting findings as well etc, keeps life intresting.

Anyway.. there is a boring update.. speak 2 u all soon hopfully xox

5:45PM - hahaha

i don't know if someof you remember.. back in the days of my child care working days, a girl called lauren, always calling me Anyssa?

Well.... i waslooking up meanings behind my name and so forth, cosi get asked about it alot at work and found this haha

Name: "Anyssa"
Origins: "English"
Meaning: "Variant of Anne or Agnes."


hehehe.. anyway i found that amuzing